Whisper Something Fragile

Ahhhh. I’m going a little too crazy. Been reading wayyyy to many mangas. I get so hopelessly romantic and well, since he’s away, I just miss him a whole lot and I want to be as “affectionate” as possible when he comes back on Sunday. Teehee. <3

How could I have ever been so lucky to end up with him?

Last night we were fortunate enough to be able to facetime and he was telling me about how his father asked why I wasn’t on the trip with them. He’s like, “I didn’t know she could come!” and his dad replied, “You never asked!”  Then his dad tells his younger brother, “You can only bring your girlfriend if you have been dating her for 2 years plus.” &Shiyeng tells me, “He said they’ll even pay for you!” So now Shiyeng has this thought that in the future when they go on another trip, he’s taking me with him because he’s lonely without a partner. Although he’s got his brother. And then his younger brother and him started making these future plans about the trip like it’s going to happen. They make me laugh. Also because they always compete about who is the better boyfriend. Those dummies. :)  

So my previous manager at Chipotle texted me and tells me that he just saw what he thinks was my boyfriend at Chipotle buying food. And I told him that he was there. Then he tells me that he gave my bf free Chipotle. So I go & ask my boyfriend if that was the case and my bf was like, “Yeah! That explains why I got free food! I thought someone must have pick-pocketed me and so that’s why they gave it to me for free but my wallet was here so I didn’t want to question it.” 

Then I tell him about how afterwards, the manager started having a conversation with me (thru text) and my bf just goes, “I’ll let it slide this time. JUST because he gave me free Chipotle.” 

This guy. 

There are certain kisses that just can’t be beat. I had a horrible argument today with Shiyeng about something utterly stupid but after some time, he came to me and told me he loved me and right at that moment I was flushed with stupidity and happiness because I didn’t want to stay mad at him so we synced and kissed and it felt so right…

This has got to be the most amazing movie ever made. I honestly didn’t want to ever watch it to begin with but since it was a Friday night, I thought I might as well…

So I’m watching it and I’m thinking it’s a great movie so far…I can’t believe I didn’t watch it sooner…and right when it gets to the end, I’m just bawling my eyes out…Only because I could relate to his feelings….by so much. I can’t even put into words… But I cried for a good while… 

And some of you might watch it and be like, “Oh, it was a great movie. Wasn’t that sad though.” But if you could only feel it, actually realize the hurt. 

I was once very damaged and broken. But somewhere down the path, I found my light. I’m just glad I’m not back there…again… but thankfully I had Shiyeng here with me… and he just laughed at me because he’ll never know but he’s good to me. 

And…I think back to those times. 

Today, I am happy. 

Crazy how you can be the last person I want to run too when I’m down.

After three years of dating and telling him exactly what it is that bothers me, he still can’t figure it out. Whatever.

I’m feeling slightly depressed. I just want to splurge on shopping for my last day here before I leave. But then I’d be broke.