December 2010
10 posts
I'm thankful for the way he is.
I guess I should be thankful he’s not entirely a man that knows everything about a girl and what she expects. There always the downside of those crap anyways. Besides, no such thing as a perfect man right? I wouldn’t want him more changed then he already is. If anything, only for the better. Yeah, he gets on my nerves and I just want to beat him up sometimes for it but it’s not...
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Flurries
I’ve never known of a hurt before that caused me to tremble from with in. But perhaps it was because I stood outside in the flurries. Yes, I’m sure that is it. I’m shivering cold. Maybe it was the friend I had or the way I vented without being in a four corner room. I had air to breathe and I swore I could have screamed and it wouldn’t have mattered really. It was perfect...
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The Damage is Done
I have never been so incredibly hurt by the same boy over and over again. I use to think it was karma kicking my ass for all the times I hurt those boys back then. I don’t blame it. This is very deserving. It’s also believable. I’m learning more and more about myself and I hope it’s my redemption from the mess I’ve been. It’s true, I may expect too much...
He is my Worst Enemy
I constantly have dreams about him… and it’s never anything good either. How long has it been going on now? Months! It’s never the same dream but it’s always about the same thing. Him and another girl. I could think of all the different things my dreams are trying to tell me but I rather not. I don’t want to get my head wrap around this crap. All I know is, everytime...
He said...
“He’ll never love you, it’s as simple as that. I sit here and watch you cry to yourself each and every day. He hurts you in so many ways. Yet you can’t say a single word. Nothing worth saying because nothing can be done. When I watch you cry, you breathe out so hard… and your eyes, they show. They show the bulges of tears that builds up the corner of your eye. I know...
I hate our relationship.
Nancy: I hate our relationship.
Shiyeng: ...
Nancy: Don't you hate it?
Shiyeng: I love us. I hate how you hate us..
Nancy: Seriously!? You love how we can stay on the phone for hours and just listen to each other breathe but not speak a single word!?
Shiyeng: Curious to know. Is this my fault?
Nancy: No
Shiyeng: Okay...Well.. I'm satisfied that you're on the phone with me.
I don't know why I let the world question my relationship. As if they know any better about how a relationship should be like. Sometimes I don't understand it. Sometimes he drives me mad. But there's no genuine love if I don't know what I'm getting myself in to (in other words, knowing my love interest at an entirely whole new level). I'm not stupid. I know better about these relationship stuff. But sometimes I get off track and that's where he comes in, assuring me how wonderful, inspiring, and strong are love is and could still be.
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I did something today I used to think I would never be able to do. It was not even my first time doing it, but I’m still amazed each time.
Today I went shopping at a mainstream store, tried on a few things, realized they didn’t fit/didn’t look good, and didn’t blame or dislike…
You should feel stupid
Nancy: I just don't understand sweetie. Why do you play game when we webcam. But when we don't, you wait.
Shiyeng: It is because I wasn't thinking before... And when you left... I wanted you back.
Nancy: You should feel stupid.
Shiyeng: But I don't
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My heart growls in hunger.
At the darkest hours I walk the street among hazy figures who could not yet sleep. From the drapes of gray I see your face and the velvet scarf that stay at place. It covers there your voluptuous smile. It smothers here my memory file. I wish to be not here not now. The shutting of lips as if a sacred vow. A passive hello from those dark green eyes. A gentle goodbye as I take one...
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Just so you know, these images are from weheartit.com. Click on the images for the original as to where I got these.
Voluminous scarves are so hefty and cozy. I need one!
Relax, it’s not dead human skin. “Tights” skins. :D
Thrifted…which got me…