I get tired of applying to places but I do it anyway because I’m definitely desperate and I’ve never been so utterly desperate.

This is what I get for barely doing volunteered work.

My boyfriend tells me he’s sad to see me like this - always randomly applying to places yet no call.

I know I have potential. Perhaps I’m exerting it all the wrong way. My own confidence is overwhelming me. I should give up. Sadly, 20+ companies applied so far (which is probably nothing compared to most people [excluding the fact that I applied to different locations of one company]) But, I’ll continue applying randomly… because it makes me feel happy for at least trying in that very…pitiful way. 

I should still consider calling in. Ugh.